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Otto McGavin is peacefully idealistic by nature, an Anglo-Buddhist, who seeks employment with the Confederacion because he believes in its mission to protect human & nonhuman rights. The only problem is that the Confederacion needs him as one of its twelve Prime Operators for its secret service, the TBII. The TBII wants him as a spy, thief & assassin. It's not, ofOtto McGavin is peacefully idealistic by nature, an Anglo-Buddhist, who seeks employment with the Confederacion because he believes in its mission to protect human & nonhuman rights. The only problem is that the Confederacion needs him as one of its twelve Prime Operators for its secret service, the TBII. The TBII wants him as a spy, thief & assassin. It's not, of course, a problem for the Confederacion, which simply uses immersion therapy & hypnotic personality overlay for Otto's training, then sends him out in deep cover, encased in plastiflesh, on a variety of dangerous missions on a number of bizarre worlds. But for him, it's a different matter: what he has to witness & what he's forced to do take a terrible toll. Always he returns to his original self--his conscience stabbed by the memory of all those he'd killed in the service of interstellar harmony....

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ISBN : 9780575072817
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Number of Pages : 184 Pages
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All My Sins Remembered Reviews

  • Lyn
    2019-05-14 04:22

    I read this book in high school, back in the 80s and I think about it every now and then, and that says something about what kind of book it is that it will creep up into a mind decades later. This was broken up into several vignettes, tied together with the concept that the hero was technologically and biologically changed to appear to be someone else for a mission. The scene that keeps coming back: he is made to be a thin, wasted away junkie, and he says to his superiors in anger and frustration, "you used chemicals to waste away my muscles but I have to get them back the old fashioned way". Cool book.

  • Jim
    2019-04-30 09:02

    What happens when the government machine decides a man would make a good assassin, even if he is a self-professed pacifist? Haldeman's experience in the Vietnam War colors this novel with his anti-government attitude as much as it does "The Forever War". Set in the far future, man has spread out to diverse worlds & colonized them, no matter what the natives may think. It's a great action story as well as a condemnation of government & foreign policy, but seen through a wonderful human lens.I re-read this today as it is a group read I picked for the Speculative Worlds group. selection as it is pretty timeless. I read this shortly after it first came out - a poor choice since I was in the Army at the time. In the same vein as The Forever War, in many ways its message is harsher, broader, & yet more personal. The layers of irony are slowly built up in a masterful way until the heavy handed ending is simply a release. Wow.

  • Bill
    2019-05-07 11:10

    I know the history of this book (see other reviews), but this seems like a series of short stories trying to be a novel or a novel trying to be short stories. Granted all stories have the same protagonist and he develops through them. I just do not like episodic fiction or short stories very much. The novel came out after his The Forever War which has obvious commonalities. Haldeman is a good writer. His style, plots and characters are appealing. If not for the books organization I would give this 4*. The cover of the 1st edition is appealing.

  • Ron
    2019-05-10 07:04

    “Right action is abstaining from killing/stealing; Right livelihood is earning a living in a way not harmful to any living thing; Right effort is to avoid evil thoughts and overcome them.”Gritty. An interstellar James Bond. Licensed to kill and commit just about any other crime to preserve the Confederación and protect the rights of humans and nonhumans. What could be more honorable? It’s what he has to do. A dirty job, but someone ….“… rougher, raunchier, dirtier and noisier than any place he had ever been. He liked it.”The dry, self-depreciating writing expected of Joe Haldeman. He doesn’t write space operas, he writes survival tales which happen to be set in space (though most of his stories transpire on someone’s terra firma).“Can you keep a secret?” “As well as the next man.” Haldeman can tell even the most repulsive tale well, and he wants the reader to be repulsed--and attracted--to Otto McGavin.“You killed those [forty-five] people and you must forgive yourself, not merely shift the blame.”

  • Charles Dee Mitchell
    2019-05-10 10:12

    Otto McGavin is a 23rd century Anglo Buddhist interested in joining the Confederacion, an intergalactic peacekeeping agency dedicated to protecting the rights of indigenous species on the many planets they now share with humans. He gets the job, but after a period of training, largely under hypnosis, he finds that he is now a Prime Operative, an assassin who will go in body-modified disguises on missions that he did not foresee for himself, but that his bosses have through testing learned he is well-suited for.This 1977 novel is three short stories, two published in magazines in 1971 and 1974, that are linked only by the lead character and that each involves an assassination on a distant planet. The two earlier stories are straightforward SF spy tales with a modicum of action in exotic extraterrestrial locales. The third story, with its engaging giant cockroach aliens who might hold the secret to a new, unlimited power source, is by far the best of the lot. What holds the books together are the interviews and debriefing sessions that provide the opening and closing chapters and separate each story. McGavin has become an expert PO who is approaching an early retirement that few in his field live to see. But this is a Joe Haldeman book, and his dim view of a military establishment that will use up it operatives until they are no longer viable darkens the adventures he has provided for the past 200 pages.

  • Mike
    2019-04-26 08:20

    In All My Sins Remembered, Otto McGavin, clandestine agent, goes undercover in disguise both physical and psychological. We follow him through 3 different operations, among many others only alluded to. Sadly, I could not give it more than 2 stars. Little character development and a pretty disjointed progression made it difficult to stay focused and interested. The ending was not justified by any of the preceding vignettes.

  • Anna
    2019-05-18 05:06

    All of the best science fiction seems to have one thing in common: the ability to deliver thrills and shocks that make you think differently about how distant and future worlds could be. In this respect, All My Sins Remembered will stay with me for a very long time. The novel takes you through a variety of different worlds and settings as seen through the eyes of a master spy and assassin called Otto McGavin. For each assignment, McGavin is physically and psychologically molded into someone else, generally a copy of a key figure in some nefarious business he needs to infiltrate. In his dangerous line of work McGavin suffers through horrific experiences, attacks and injuries, only to do it all over again with another face and another body on yet another assignment. The carrot of reward and retirement is dangled before him, but his government masters have no real interest in releasing such a useful asset. The accumulation of evil deeds in his past becomes increasingly difficult to shake off, and all the more so on his penultimate assignment. McGavin faces his immorality through the eyes of the gentle and sweetly-perceptive S'Kang, who so wonderfully characterize a strange and delightful kind of alien intelligence. McGavin's Anglo-Buddhist background provide the seeds of an uprising in him; a rejection of the violence and deception that define his life, and which threaten to rupture his soul.

  • Chris
    2019-05-07 03:22

    I finished late last night. Fought through the sleepies to finish. I don't know why a book that short seemed to take that long, but I guess it really wasn't. Was more like a long week...But anyway, I liked it. Not near as much as The Forever War, or even quite as much as The Accidental Time Machine, the previous Haldeman books I've read.I liked the concept of this one, and for the most part the execution. But by the end of it I was ready to move on to something else.

  • Timothy Boyd
    2019-05-07 03:13

    Another excellent book by this very entertaining writer. This time he somehow takes SiFi and blends it into a spy novel and drags you along for a ride that you find over far to soon. As always great story, interesting characters and an excellent read. If you are new to SiFi and want to try a great author or an older SiFi fan and want to find a great author the answer is the same, Joe Haldeman. Very recommended.

  • Steve Merrick
    2019-05-11 07:21

    Joe Haldeman is a bloody fine purveyor of sci fi, In all my sins remembered he paints a world of secrets that could be considered by some as allegories of the cold war but in reality are thoroughly original and brilliantly put together. I do not want to give the plots away but its really really really worth reading this one. Trust me I am a total stranger to you so go and read this you will not regret it.

  • Chris
    2019-05-25 10:00

    I'm a real Haldeman fan so this was a bit disappointing for me. The premise is that an idealistic young man is inducted into a top secret espionage agency in the future and then sent on 30+ missions using the ultimate disguises - "personality overlays" - by which he literally assumes the identity of someone on the scene to accomplish his mission. As his career goes on it takes a savage toll on the agent.There were bits about this book that I did enjoy, but it lacked the character development and engagement that some of Haldeman's other books have had. While Haldeman usually writes books that are cynical in their view of government and military, he often balances that with more optimistic views of some of the characters, leading to a clash between actual feeling individuals and an unfeeling and merciless system (c.f., Forever War). This book had the unfeeling system, in spades, but lacked any development of a more human individual character. I think that is what prevented me from engaging with the book tot he extent I wanted, and resulted in the rating of 3.

  • Olethros
    2019-05-01 08:01

    -¿Crítica sociopolítica o simple evasión?.- Género. Ciencia-Ficción. Lo que nos cuenta. Resumen de los 23 años de servicio de Otto McGavin en el TBII, el brazo operativo secreto de la Confederación, en orden cronológico y a través de las transcripciones de su entrevista inicial, del repaso de su primera misión, del relato pormenorizado de tres de sus misiones posteriores y de las transcripciones de los exámenes sucesivos sobre el estado de la personalidad de Otto durante su periodo de servicio.¿Quiere saber más de este libro, sin spoilers? Visite:

  • Olethros
    2019-05-03 03:22

    -¿Crítica sociopolítica o simple evasión?.- Género. Ciencia-Ficción. Lo que nos cuenta. Resumen de los 23 años de servicio de Otto McGavin en el TBII, el brazo operativo secreto de la Confederación, en orden cronológico y a través de las transcripciones de su entrevista inicial, del repaso de su primera misión, del relato pormenorizado de tres de sus misiones posteriores y de las transcripciones de los exámenes sucesivos sobre el estado de la personalidad de Otto durante su periodo de servicio.¿Quiere saber más de este libro, sin spoilers? Visite:

  • Melanie
    2019-05-16 03:04

    I have carried this book from place to place for years, I have the 1977 edition. It hangs in my head as one of my favorite books, but I no longer remembered the story itself. I read the book again, and there was this scene where he was pulling his focus on pain, circling it and then constricting the circle and holding it outside of himself. Although I had filed that with in my memory it had not filed where I read such a thing. It was beautiful to rediscovery a moment that had embedded into myself. the ending left me full wondering question so much I read it over several times. It is now going to go to the goodwill.I recommend the book, as a child and as an adult.

  • James
    2019-05-24 05:02

    A powerful book from the author of The Forever War, and a haunting examination of the effect on a good and thoughtful person of fighting and killing even in an apparently worthy cause. Haldeman served in Vietnam and what he took away from that war comes through in this book as well as in The Forever War.

  • Joan
    2019-04-26 07:05

    My god this is fabulous. Heartbreakingly fabulous. I won't say much about the plot, but the timeline drags the reader through the life of Otto from his first interview to his last assignment. Brilliant, intense writing and the end was.... (view spoiler)[ utterly and absolutely devastating. I wanted to cry. (hide spoiler)]

  • Aaron
    2019-05-02 11:16

    This era of classic scifi is so distinct in combining a swashbuckling sense of derring-do with a tremendous cynicism. I don't have too much more to say about this book other than I finished it in one sitting and I think it's one that'll stick with me. Maybe it's one I should have read earlier in life.

  • Steve
    2019-04-30 08:11

    An excellent science fiction novel, dealing with submerged identity and murder, wrapped in a taut story. up to Mr. Haldeman's usual high standards.

  • Zed
    2019-04-30 07:13

    Good and well written. Also super-depressing

  • Scott Oliver
    2019-05-12 06:18

    Classic Haldeman!Haldeman excels at complex stories with conflicted protagonists battling the conflict between who they are and who they've been turned into.

  • Steve
    2019-05-04 11:24

    An odd book that doesn't quite hold together but does enough to make you think. As another reviewer suggested I suspect it will float in my consciousness for a while.

  • Kenneth
    2019-05-04 11:26

    Our "hero" Otto McGavin, is caught up in a career, being an agent of the TBII, which means being an assassin, spy, etc. which can go against all the values he was brought up in as an "Anglo-Buddhist". A dark vision of the future.

  • Nicolas
    2019-05-10 03:03

    Dans ce roman, on suit les aventures d’un "agent" de la confederaçion, l’inévitable société de l’espace censée régir la bonne marche des planètes grâce à un ensemble de règles simples visant à empêcher les guerres, l’exploitation des trop faibles extra-terrestres et quelques autres trucs somme toute mineurs. L’intérêt de ce bouquin, c’est que, pour remplir ses missions, notre agent secret est imprégné sous hypnose de la personne qu’il va remplacer, et maquillé de manière plutôt efficace. Bien sûr, comme c’est avant tout un agent secret, il connaît au moins dix façons de tuer silencieusement son ennemi. Contrairement à ce qu’on pourrait croire, ce roman n’est pas une n-ième ressucée de l’archi-galvaudé thème de la sauvegarde de notre univers et de notre mode de vie, mais une réflexion sur des thèmes que j’ai un peu de mal à définir. L’éditeur nous dit "une réflexion incisive sur la violence d’État et la perversion du pouvoir". C’est vrai, mais en même temps complètement, radicalement et définitivement faux. Bien sûr, le pouvoir est violent, mais je ne crois pas que ce soit vraiment le sujet du roman. A mon sens, l’auteur se rapproche plutôt de thèmes déja évoqués dans la guerre éternelle comme par exemple la façon dont une bureaucratie, quelle que soit sa forme, peut broyer ses élites simplement en ne les écoutant pas. Remarquez bien que je dis sans doute ça en écho à ma situation personnelle qui n’est pas tout à fait brillante (mais ça n’est pas le sujet ici). C’est donc un roman très intéressant par cette thématique qui sert de ligne rouge. Cependant, la chose perd un peu de son intérêt du fait de la construction du roman. En effet, il est conçu comme un fix-up et les phases où la personnalité de l’agent est exposée ne sont que des transitions rapides entre deux missions sur le terrain. Celles-ci ne sont pas inintéressantes (et présentent même une certaine originalité dans le dernier cas) mais sont quand même un cran au-dessous de ces phases d’introspection d’une âpreté saisissante. Tout ça fait de ce court roman une oeuvre sympathique, mais pas essentielle à mon sens.

  • Andrew
    2019-05-22 10:21

    This is a proper old-fashioned science fiction novel. Written in the late 1970s it actually reads more like a 50s-60s Heinlein or even Asimov novel, with quite sparse descriptive sections and a lot of dialogue-driven action. I’ve not read something like this for a while and it was quite refreshing and enjoyable.All My Sins Remembered is actually a ‘fix-up’. It comprises of 3 short stories all of which were previously published in magazines, and all of which feature the same main character Otto McGavin. The stories are linked by short intermissions which try to give an overall coherence to create the novel. It is only just successful in doing that, but the individual stories are good if a little dated in places (especially when discussing technology). Set in the far-future, when the human race has spread through the galaxy under a loose alliance called the Confederacion, McGavin is a Confederacion special agent. Via physical transformation and ‘personality overlay’ he impersonates important people in order to discover secrets, and is sent to planets where wrongdoings are suspected. Of course some of the people he has to impersonate are pretty horrible, and so he has to do some horrible things too. The personality overlay effectively means that he temporarily becomes these people, but can remember everything he’s done once it wears off. This takes a toll on his mental state.The underlying message, if I’m not reading too much into it, seems to be about the potential of big government to warp how people think and act in support of their country, possibly completely contrary to how they’d otherwise act. It is possibly (given the era and nation it was written in) an anti-communist story, but I guess it could apply to nationalism of any kind too. The final epilogue emphasises the cynical people-as-resources attitude of this particular government towards its citizens, so could well be anti-capitalist too! Perhaps it is just anti-everything. :-)Although it doesn’t really hang together that well as a novel, it is worth reading as a short-story anthology. Exciting secret-agent adventures in space, what teenage boy, or teenage-at-heart man, would not like it? I'd give this 7/10, if I could!

  • Scott Holstad
    2019-05-10 11:09

    This 222 page book makes for a quick read and it's somewhat enjoyable. Otto McGavin, an Anglo-Buddhist, seeks a job with the Confederacion because he believes in its mission to protect human and nonhuman rights. The problems begin there. The Confederacion needs him as one of its 12 Prime Operators for its mega-secret, secret service, the TBII. The TBII wants to use him as a spy and assassin. They carry this out through the use of immersion therapy and hypnotic personality overlay for Otto's ongoing training, before he's sent out encased in plastiflesh, his disguise that makes him take on the total appearance of his targets. This book concentrates on three missions on several worlds. However, after every mission, Otto is debriefed and he remembers -- indeed, is forced to remember -- the murders he committed for the TBII. Ultimately, this breaks him down at the book's conclusion. I thought the stories behind the three missions were all interesting and they were quite varied too, so Haldeman got to play with the character. I'm not sure there was enough character development, though, and as it is such a short book, the author could have done more, but it's still decent enough to make it an interesting read. I sometimes had trouble believing some segments of the episodes, and the final one does get just a bit scattered, but overall, it was pretty decent sci fi. Not my favorite. Not Philip K. Dick. Just a good, fast read for the beach or plane (or at bedtime, in my case). I really think this is a three star book, but I'm optimistically giving it four because I simply enjoyed it. However, cautiously recommended.

  • Ben
    2019-05-19 06:07

    This book has a lot of potential. The basic concepts, and each individual section of the story are all quite fantastic. A subliminally trained super-spy for an intergalactic confederation is capable of assuming the persona of various persons in order to infiltrate organizations. The story follows this man as he progresses through various missions, including psychological debriefings interspersed throughout. Each mission is incredibly interesting--they get more so as you go on, in fact--and it's fascinating to see how the true persona of the main character is subjugated and, eventually, destroyed. However, the breaking up of the whole book into these mini-episodes feels a bit stilted, and I honestly was left wanting to know more about each one. I get that the point of the book was more to show the main character's realization of the corrupt nature of the Confederation, and his own complete loss of self and identity; but the flow of the story from each episode to the next wasn't smooth enough, and each episode should have been fleshed out a bit more. It's not a very long book, so taking the time to build up each mission would not, in my opinion, have been prohibitive to its publication. Rather, it would allow the reader to get a greater grasp of the *other* characters involved, as well as to get a better grip on these varied worlds. I'd give this book 5 stars if it weren't for these issues; and I'm sorely tempted to push it up to 4 stars, just because it is still a very fun, interesting, and thought-provoking read.

  • Andreas
    2019-05-01 10:06

    It was okay. The description of the book is actually more exciting than the book itself. Personality overlays give special agents the chance to completely act like someone else, which is used in combination with cosmetical changes to create a perfect doppelgänger. The confederacion uses them to spy on suspicious people or to infiltrate organizations.All My Sins Remembered is a fix up of three previously published novellas. They are a mix of SF and espionage with fast paced action. The first two were not so impressing from an SF point of view and although the planets and societies are quite exotic, the plot comes straight from the pulp era. The title story is by far the best with fascinating aliens, strange mysteries and moral considerations. It could have been much better if the inner conflict of the protagonist would have got more room so that the reader could feel closer to him. He is too much of a puppet and at the end I didn't care much about his fate.Not worth tracking down and not on par with The Forever War or Mindbridge, but a quick read on a rainy weekend.

  • Cy
    2019-04-29 10:26

    Interesting story about a deep-cover government operative who uses hypnosis and advanced plastic surgery to literally become some one else in order to complete his missions. He spends the time between each mission in "conversation" with a psychiatrist while completely unconscious, so each mission can be seen as a sort of reincarnation for Otto.All throughout the story is a kind of allegory that what he does is an earthly replication of Buddhist reincarnation (the character mentions that he is/was a Buddhist), however with each new "life", he commits more and more sins (government sanctioned as they may be) which leads to chaos and the climax of the story. Ultimately, it's an interesting concept that fuels an interesting story. The four missions that we witness through Otto's varying eyes are diverse and interesting enough, though I felt that some of the missions hinted at through the conversations with the psychiatrist could've been more interesting. If it were any longer (it was 176 pages in my edition), it would have long overstayed its welcome, but as it's a bite-size snack for a few hours reading, it's entertaining enough.

  • LindaJ^
    2019-05-02 03:59

    In a future world, Otto wants to work for what might be called the foreign service of the Confederacion - the government that of a number of worlds populated by humans. But after the tests, the government psychartist decides to put Otto in covert operations. He trains for about 2 years but doesn't remember the training because it was done under hypnosis. When it is time for him to become active, he is told that his job will primarily be to kill people who are threatening alien worlds. Otto is pretty good at the job and manages to survive until he has only one more assignment before he can retire to a desk job. Oh, important to know that most every job involves him being programmed to be 90% the bad guy he is to impersonate, requiring a lot of changes to his body.This can probably be called an anti-government book. It is written by an Vietnam vet who, like many of that era, felt betrayed by a government that sent a generation of young men to fight in a civil war in Vietnam. And it still seems relevant.

  • Jen
    2019-04-25 03:25

    An interesting exploration by Haldeman that tells a number of engaging short stories (none of them individually astounding, but all good), and links them together through the eyes of a man whose personality is relegated to the background, and whose character has been molded without his consent. Otto struggles throughout the book to break free of his "programming" and recover a notion of selfhood. The short stories are entertaining, and Otto's identity struggles (especially towards the end) are fascinating. Haldeman's books always have some hook to inspire discourse and questions-- this is no exception, but the philosophical aspect is, I think, pushed too much to the sidelines and brought out only in disjointed counterpoint to the majority of the book. You may wonder whether Haldeman just had a backlog of novellas he wanted to write, and used them as filler in a story about how we can define (and redefine) someone's identity. But it's a good enough read that you probably won't care.